Let Me Clear My Throat

blessing vs. suffering
June 23, 2010, 12:23 pm
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Check out these beautiful truths from a great man/team leader for the Young Life Hertford trip, Brent Shoemaker.

“What if being blessed meant suffering? What if pain was the road that landed you at destination blessing?  Do suffering and blessing go together?

What is the better blessing anyway, a new job or a new heart?  A new boyfriend or a new way of seeing God as Father? A new set of circumstances or a new way of viewing your circumstances?   So much of what we attach to “blessing” is circumstantial but the real value of blessing is what happens inside.  What would you rather have?  Inner Peace or Outward Power?  Contentment or More Stuff?  More friends or Self Worth?  I’ve been challenged so much lately to rethink my entire approach to “blessing”  & “better.” For so long I looked for the outward manifestation of God’s goodness and now God is directing my eyes to my heart.  What is the true blessing Stephanie, new circumstances or a new freedom in me that is not dependent on your circumstances? Stephanie do you want to own more stuff or do you want to be free from your stuff owning you? So what kind of “blessing” are you looking for?  Scripture is clear, God is most obsessed with the condition of our hearts and desires to “bless” us by by conforming us more into the image of Jesus. (Sanctification)   Maybe you’re looking in all the wrong places for a “blessing.”  It’s possible that your greatest blessing is happening right now in your heart as God uses this painful life to actually give you life.”

30 days until I get to serve alongside these sweet people in Hertford, England.


i found some joy today.
June 21, 2010, 8:03 pm
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the intensity of joy is increased while in the midst of being refined.

June 15, 2010, 3:33 pm
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Let’s get straight to it, no pretty intro today. Paradoxes are forever present in Christianity. For example, feeling uncomfortable makes us more like Jesus during his journey to the cross, “When you are weak, then you are strong,” suppressing yourself so Jesus can be more, dying to yourself so you can live… and countless more. Not to say I don’t agree with all those statements, but let’s be honest, none of them sound enjoyable. In the last few days, I’ve had a head on collision with a specific paradox, and I actually delighted in it. It sounds really elementary, but getting back to the basics has been helping me through the more sorrowful days.

When people I love are going through rough times, a switch flips and I instantly go into nurturing, encouraging mode. Dying to myself, and serving others while honestly not expecting anything in return has given me a new outlook on a lot of things. It puts a lot of things into perspective as well.

Bringing other people joy has been bringing more joy to me than I could have imagined possible.

Hey williby, I am okay today.